after that job interview something just clicked in my head and i've been so much less anxious about so many things in my life, i feel so great being able to just. Do things now.
like before that i would never had had the balls to go to the gym and now i've actually got the membership and everytime i think about it there's not a pit in my stomach, i feel genuinely good about going and doing it.
i still play 4 hours of hitman straight at my PC at degenerate hours but i feel like im slowly coming out of that phase now and i didn't even need to make any major changes. it just felt like the right time which is weirdly how most things go in my life.
